I love Matthew, seriously

I honestly and truly love Matthew. He's always telling me that he loves me and that I'm his best friend. There are times when it would be faster for me to run into Wal-Mart and grab a gallon of milk without him offering to put toys in the basket for me. (He's such a big help!) But I haven't had a moment where I've been ready to pull my hair out because of him.

I enjoy taking him to the movies, or walking with him around the neighborhood. I really like my son. I feel a little guilty that I am here to enjoy him and Jaysen's not.

Before Jay left, he promised Matthew that they'd make chocolate chip cookies together. When he asked where the stuff was, I pulled out each of the ingredients. I think he was a little surprised to learn that it doesn't always have to come ready to bake.

(I was surprised that I had that many ingredients in my cupboard!!! Seriously, there's a reason Jaysen was assuming that everything comes ready to bake.)

I'm glad that they baked the cookies that way. It's all about the memories and there is nothing fun about cutting the cookies apart and baking them. Mess = fun.