Ramblings...

This morning, we were watching Sleeping Beauty before Matthew went to school. It got to the part where the last little fairy is casting her spell on Aurora. It's this big long poem about love's first kiss and Matthew asked "What does that mean?"

I explained "it means that instead of dying, she is going to fall asleep. When her true love kisses her, she will wake up."

"Like her brother?"

"No, not her brother. Like her boyfriend."

He got this disgusting look on his face. "You have got to be kidding me! Please, tell me you're joking."

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The other day, I was sitting with Matthew, helping him with his homework. He was trying to negotiate the two pages down to one line and it wasn't working.

Then he started crying. I love Matthew's face and when he cries, he looks just like he did when he was a baby. And I love that face so much that it is difficult for me to keep a straight face when he looks like that.

But then he did this face that I've never seen before. His upper lip did this V kind of thing and he started crying even harder. I asked him what was wrong and he goes "I just really miss Daddy." Then it hit me. The reason why I'd never seen this face before was because it was the face of a broken heart.

I tried to take a picture of it, because it is still a beautiful face and the emotion was so raw and real. But, he was embarrassed and wouldn't let me take it. To be honest, I hope I never have to see that particular face again. Mostly because I don't like the feelings that are behind it.

It will all be better soon.